It’s probably most likely not healthy to keep that anonymous comment from you, but I know it’s from you so I keep it. Though our friendship hasn’t been too solid nowadays. I still care.
I push people away because eventually I never believe I’m good enough. I know it isn’t healthy to look into the past because it doesn’t always define who you are, but i have so many regrets that I wish i didn’t have. Although I did learn from those mistakes and regrets, I have been scarred for life and the feelings just build up over the years that I can’t take it anymore.